Dawn Doses & Pocket Prep
Dawn Doses & Pocket Prep
Rain lashed against the bus window as I fumbled with a leaking thermos, scalding coffee seeping into my scrubs. My three-year-old’s forgotten permission slip crumpled in my pocket—another failure before sunrise. Between night shifts at the clinic and daycare runs, the PTCB exam felt like a taunt. Then my phone buzzed: 10-question daily drill. I thumbed open the app, ignoring the toddler’s cereal barrage from the stroller.
Sterile packaging guidelines flashed on screen. Real-world calculations bled into my commute: "If a physician orders 15mg/kg of amoxicillin..." My sleep-deprived brain short-circuited until the app’s step-by-step breakdown dissected the math like surgical instruments. I cursed when my son kicked my wrist mid-calculation, syrup-smeared fingers smearing the screen. But the interface didn’t glitch—just patiently waited, timer paused. That mercy nearly made me weep.
By week two, the app’s algorithm had mapped my incompetence. It ambushed me with insulin dilution problems during lunch breaks, federal law quizzes while stirring macaroni. The adaptive questioning felt like being stalked by a very polite assassin. I’d snap at my husband for breathing too loud while memorizing DEA forms, then apologize with flashcard terms: "Exhibiting irritability—side effect of chronic knowledge deficiency."
The night before the exam, I dreamt in multiple-choice. Woke clawing at pillows, convinced I’d confuse myxedema with a thyroid storm. At 5AM, I huddled in the bathtub (only soundproof room) doing mock exams. When a question on hazardous drug disposal appeared, the app’s 3D vial rotation feature spun—a grotesque disco ball of doom. I vomited into the toilet.
At the testing center, my palms left sweat ghosts on the keyboard. Question #47: pediatric dopamine infusion. The app’s calculation simulator materialized in my mind—tap tap tap, drag the decimal. Later, walking past the "Pass" notification, I didn’t cheer. Just leaned against my car, replaying a voice note I’d made in the app weeks prior: "You’re studying on a toilet seat while your kid bangs on the door. Remember this when they say you can’t."
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