Amarant 2025-11-05T04:24:40Z

Rain lashed against my bedroom window that Tuesday, the kind of storm that turns streetlights into watery ghosts. I'd been staring at the ceiling for hours, my mind racing with theological knots no sermon seemed to untangle. Earlier that evening, I'd snapped at my daughter over spilled milk – a trivial moment that echoed the hollow ache in my chest. My usual prayer apps felt like conversing with chatbots, offering prefabricated devotionals that scraped the surface of my turmoil. Then I remembere

That metallic taste of panic still lingers when I recall opening my empty booking diary last winter. Weeks of blank squares stared back, each one a tiny tombstone for my dying dream. My makeup brushes gathered dust while I calculated how many meals I could skip before the landlord's knuckles would rap against my studio door. The freelance beauty world felt like shouting into a hurricane – my portfolio bursting with vibrant eye designs and sculpted cheekbones meant nothing when clients only cared