Muridism poetry 2025-10-27T09:26:11Z

Rain drummed against the ryokan window like impatient fingertips, each drop magnifying my isolation in this paper-walled room. Three weeks into my Kyoto residency program, the romanticized solitude had curdled into aching loneliness. My Japanese remained stubbornly fragmented, conversations with locals ending in bowed apologies and retreated footsteps. That evening, clutching cold onigiri from 7-Eleven, I swiped past endless travel apps until OVO's promise of "real-time global connection" glowed

It was a dreary Tuesday afternoon, and I was hunched over my laptop in my cramped home studio, sweat beading on my forehead as I tried to record the final lines for a children's audiobook. My voice sounded like sandpaper—flat, monotonous, and utterly uninspiring. I'd spent hours re-recording the same sentence, but no matter how I modulated my tone, it lacked the whimsy needed to bring fairy tales to life. Frustration coiled in my chest like a snake, and I slammed my fist on the desk, sending my

Sweat trickled down my collar as I stared at the glass office door, my reflection showing a man drowning in silence. Six months earlier, I'd sat across from another hiring manager, fumbling through "strengths and weaknesses" like a broken cassette tape. When she asked about my "Achilles' heel," I pictured Greek statues and muttered something about gym injuries. That humiliating silence cost me the job – and my confidence. I spent weeks replaying her polite dismissal: "Your technical skills are i

Rain lashed against the supermarket windows as I stood paralyzed in the snack aisle, clutching two identical bags of tortilla chips. My thumb hovered between them like a malfunctioning metronome - one with a tiny yellow discount sticker already peeling at the corner, the other full-priced but part of some loyalty program I'd forgotten to activate last Tuesday. That familiar wave of financial vertigo hit me: the crushing certainty that no matter which I chose, I'd lose. This wasn't shopping; it w

Chilled November rain needled my face as I stumbled past glowing brasserie windows near Gare du Nord. Each warm interior tableau felt like deliberate cruelty - clinking wine glasses, steaming onion soup, couples leaning close over shared desserts. My damp coat clung with the weight of three weeks' sobriety unraveling. That distinctive Pernod aroma wafting from a corner bistro triggered visceral tremors in my hands. Just one pastis. Just to stop shaking. Just to feel warm again. My throat constri

Rain lashed against my windows like gravel thrown by an angry child, the third consecutive night of a storm that had knocked out power across our neighborhood. My phone's glow was the only light in the suffocating blackness, its 18% battery warning a blinking countdown to isolation. That's when the craving hit – not for food or light, but for sound to slice through the heavy silence. I fumbled past apps screaming with notifications until my thumb hovered over an unfamiliar teal icon: Zene.

Blinding snow lashed against Mehrabad Airport's windows as my knuckles whitened around a crumpled boarding pass. Flight 217 to Mashhad – canceled. Again. That familiar acidic dread pooled in my throat. Three hours earlier, I'd been confidently sipping chai, reviewing architectural blueprints for tomorrow's client presentation. Now? Stranded. The airline desk queue snaked through half the terminal, a chorus of frustrated Farsi bouncing off steel beams. My sister's wedding started in 9 hours. Miss

Rain lashed against my studio window in Oslo, each drop sounding like tiny nails hammering into my isolation. Six weeks since relocating for work, and my most meaningful conversation had been with a barista who mispronounced "croissant." My furnished apartment smelled of synthetic pine cleaner and unopened dreams. That's when my phone buzzed – not with another soulless dating app notification, but with a newsletter featuring Omi's voice-first approach. Skepticism curdled in my throat; hadn't all

I still remember the knot in my stomach as I stared at the lineup for Echo Valley Music Fest, my first major festival alone. At 22, I was a wide-eyed newbie, drowning in a sea of band names and set times. A friend had mumbled something about an app called Thunderdome, but I brushed it off—another piece of digital clutter, I thought. Yet, desperation has a way of making skeptics into believers. Three days before the gates opened, I tapped the download icon, half-expecting another glitchy disappoi

It was supposed to be a relaxing Sunday barbecue at my cousin's place, the kind where you forget about work and just enjoy the smell of grilled burgers and laughter. But my phone buzzed incessantly in my pocket, a relentless reminder that my online marketplace never sleeps. I excused myself from the table, heart sinking as I saw a flood of notifications—a seller had messed up an order, and a buyer was threatening to leave a scathing review if not resolved immediately. In that moment, standing in

It was a typical Tuesday evening, and I was curled up on my couch, mindlessly scrolling through Instagram. My feed was a blur of vacation photos, food pics, and the usual memes, but then I stumbled upon something that made my heart skip a beat: a video of my daughter's first ballet recital, posted by a friend who had attended. She had captured those precious moments—the tiny tutu, the wobbly pirouettes, the beaming smile at the end—and shared it as a story. I felt a surge of joy, but it was quic

The screen flickered like a dying torch in Dudael’s deepest crypt as my rogue’s health bar plummeted to crimson. My thumb jammed against the dodge button – sticky with coffee residue – but nothing happened. "Move, damn you!" I hissed at the pixelated figure now frozen mid-leap while skeletal mages charged their death spells. Three hours of strategic positioning, resource management, and carefully timed ability rotations evaporated in that single lag spike. I nearly spiked my phone onto the subwa

Rain lashed against the windowpanes like an angry toddler throwing peas, trapping us indoors on what was supposed to be our park day. My five-year-old grandson Leo slumped on the rug, bottom lip trembling in that particular way that precedes nuclear meltdown. Desperation clawed at me – where was that damn tablet? My fingers fumbled through couch cushions still smelling of stale popcorn until I hit cold metal. Charging cable attached like a lifeline, I swiped past weather apps and shopping lists

Rain lashed against my windows like thrown gravel when I jolted awake at 3 AM—not from thunder, but the sickening *glug-glug-glug* of water gushing inside my walls. I vaulted out of bed, heart hammering against my ribs, and skidded into a nightmare: a ceiling crack weeping rusty water onto my vintage turntable collection. Panic clawed up my throat. Last year’s flood meant days of shouting into voicemail voids, mold creeping up baseboards while maintenance ghosts ignored pleas. Now? My fingers st

It all started on a dreary Tuesday morning, the kind where the rain tapped a monotonous rhythm against my windowpane, and I felt utterly adrift in this new city I now called home. I had moved to Rostock for a fresh start, a freelance writer seeking inspiration, but instead, I found myself drowning in a sea of unfamiliar faces and silent streets. My smartphone was my lifeline, a portal to the world I'd left behind, until a colleague offhandedly mentioned the Nordkurier App. "It's f

When I first stepped into my new apartment at the Harbor Heights complex last spring, I was drowning in a sea of move-in chaos. Boxes were piled high, the smell of fresh paint lingered in the air, and my desk was cluttered with envelopes containing lease agreements, utility forms, and a dozen other documents that made my head spin. I had just relocated for a new job, and the stress of settling in was overwhelming. Each day felt like a battle against missed emails, lost papers, and frantic calls

It all started on a dreary Tuesday afternoon when I was trudging through the rain-soaked streets of my hometown, feeling that familiar pang of despair as I passed by yet another "For Lease" sign plastered on what used to be old Mr. Henderson's bakery. The scent of fresh bread had long faded, replaced by the damp, musty smell of abandonment. I remember thinking, "Is this it? Is our community just slowly withering away?" That sense of helplessness was a constant companion until I stumbled upon Vol

Let me start with this: I did not want to like Nickelodeon Card Clash. I downloaded it as a joke. A card game with SpongeBob? Really? That felt like trying to win poker with Uno cards. But fast-forward two weeks, and I’m waking up early—not to check email, not to doomscroll—just to see if I finally pulled that legendary Zuko card. Yeah. This game got me.

Rain lashed against my Barcelona apartment window like shrapnel, each drop mocking the hollow ache in my chest. Six weeks since the move from Toronto, and the novelty of Gaudí’s mosaics had curdled into suffocating isolation. My Spanish was still "hola" and "gracias," and conversations with family back home felt like shouting across a canyon—delayed, distorted, heavy with everything unsaid. That Tuesday night, scrolling through app stores in desperation, I almost dismissed Karawan Voice Chat as

It was one of those dreary Amsterdam evenings where the rain didn't just fall—it whispered secrets against my windowpane, each droplet a reminder of how isolated I felt in this new city. I'd moved here six months ago for work, chasing a career dream that had quickly morphed into a cycle of fluorescent-lit offices and silent apartments. That night, the hollow echo of my own footsteps in the empty room was deafening, and I found myself scrolling mindlessly through my phone, desperate for