NEJM 2025-11-05T11:17:48Z

The ceiling fan's rhythmic whir felt like a countdown timer in the darkness. 2:47 AM glared from my phone, its blue light stinging my dry eyes as tomorrow's presentation bullet points clashed with childhood memories in a dizzying mental carousel. I'd tried white noise apps that sounded like malfunctioning air conditioners, meditation guides speaking in unnaturally saccharine tones, even prescription sleep aids that left me groggy and hollow. That night, scrolling through app store reviews with t

Rain hadn't touched our soil in forty-three days when the locusts arrived. I stood knee-deep in cornstalks that crackled like dry bones underfoot, watching a shimmering cloud descend upon what remained of my livelihood. The sound alone haunts me still - that papery rustle of a thousand jaws dismantling eight months of dawn-to-dusk labor. My knuckles turned white around the pesticide canister, its contents long proven useless against this new swarm. In that moment, choking on dust and defeat, far

Monsoon clouds hung like soaked rags over our village when the hailstorm hit. I remember crouching in our storeroom, listening to ice marbles shredding the rice paddies my family nurtured for eight months. The tin roof screamed under the assault, and through cracks in the door, I saw our neighbor Srinivas running across the mud-sludge courtyard – not toward shelter, but to salvage sodden fertilizer sacks. His movements had that particular frantic energy of farmers watching their yearly income di

Rain lashed against my Brooklyn apartment windows as I stared at the monstrosity I'd created. My once-vibrant Swiss cheese plant now resembled a crime scene – yellowing leaves curling like burnt parchment, brown spots spreading like inkblots on a Rorschach test. I'd named her Delilah during a pandemic-induced plant-buying spree, but now? She was dying on my watch, and I didn't even know her real species. Sweat prickled my neck despite the AC humming. This wasn't just foliage failure; it felt lik

I remember the day my prized orchid, a gift from my grandmother, started shedding its blossoms like tears. The petals, once vibrant and full of life, now lay crumpled on the windowsill, and I felt a familiar knot of failure tighten in my chest. For years, I’d been the unofficial plant undertaker of my neighborhood, presiding over funerals for ferns, cacti, and even the supposedly indestructible snake plant. Each loss was a personal defeat, a reminder that my thumbs were anything but green. Then,