existential timekeeping 2025-11-01T22:18:12Z
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Rain lashed against my studio apartment window like thousands of tiny fists demanding entry – a percussion section to the symphony of isolation that had scored my life since relocating to this rain-slicked city. Three months. Three months of echoing footsteps in empty hallways, of conversations reduced to "paper or plastic?" with grocery clerks, of scrolling through dating apps where every photo felt like a billboard screaming "JUDGE ME!" That particular Tuesday at 1:47 AM found me hunched over -
That Tuesday morning tasted like stale coffee and dread. I was hunched over my desk at 6:47 AM, three Excel windows frozen mid-calc while my phone buzzed with supplier rage texts. Another shipment stalled because Betty from accounting approved Vendor X through email while Carlos in logistics rejected them via SAP - classic Tuesday in our procurement circus. My finger actually trembled when I tried switching tabs, haunted by last quarter's fiasco where duplicate payments bled $80k because nobody