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The metallic taste of dread coated my tongue as I watched frost crawl across my Yekaterinburg apartment window. Three months unemployed. Three months of watching my breath fog in the unheated room while rejection emails piled like digital tombstones. That morning, I'd scraped the last spoonful of buckwheat from the pot, grains sticking to chipped ceramic like final insults. My fingers trembled when I grabbed the phone - not from cold, but from the acid-burn humiliation of begging my cousin for a