reading depth 2025-09-14T21:38:12Z

Rain lashed against my Brooklyn apartment window like thousands of tapping fingers while my mind replayed the day's failures on loop. Promotion denied. Relationship ended. Bank account bleeding. The digital clock glowed 2:17 AM when I finally surrendered to the suffocating loneliness, fingers trembling as they scrolled past dopamine traps masquerading as self-help apps. That's when I accidentally tapped the icon - a peacock feather against saffron - and Shrimad Bhagvad Gita unfolded like an anci

The 2:37 AM silence had teeth tonight. Outside my Brooklyn window, a garbage truck's distant groan echoed the frustration churning in my gut. Another ranked match lost—crushed by a reading blunder so elementary it felt like betrayal. My physical tsumego books lay scattered like fallen soldiers, their dog-eared pages whispering of countless failed attempts. Diagrams blurred. I was tracing lines, not seeing shapes. The wall felt physical, cold stone against my ambition.