vessels 2025-11-03T15:26:03Z

Rain lashed against my bedroom window like gravel hitting a dumpster, the rhythmic patter syncing with my restless leg bouncing under the desk. Another Friday night trapped in this shoebox apartment while the city pulsed outside. My fingers drummed on the phone screen - scrolling through endless apps feeling like flipping through soggy takeout menus. Then I remembered that red icon with the tire mark I'd downloaded during lunch. What the hell, couldn't be worse than doomscrolling.

I was knee-deep in mud, rain pelting my face like icy needles, and all I could think was, "This wasn't supposed to happen." It was supposed to be a glorious day for a solo hike through the Redwood Forest—a much-needed escape from city life. I had checked the weather the night before on some generic app that promised "partly cloudy," but here I was, shivering under a canopy of trees that offered little shelter from the sudden downpour. My phone was slippery in my hands, b

It was the morning of my best friend's wedding, and I was panicking in front of the mirror, my fingers trembling as I held up a bottle of nail polish that had long since dried out. I'd spent hours scrolling through Pinterest, saving countless designs that promised elegance but only delivered frustration. My nails were bare, a canvas of insecurity, and I felt that familiar knot in my stomach—the one that whispers, "You'll never get it right." As a beauty blogger who's tried every app under the su

Rain lashed against my windows like thrown gravel when I jolted awake at 3 AM—not from thunder, but the sickening *glug-glug-glug* of water gushing inside my walls. I vaulted out of bed, heart hammering against my ribs, and skidded into a nightmare: a ceiling crack weeping rusty water onto my vintage turntable collection. Panic clawed up my throat. Last year’s flood meant days of shouting into voicemail voids, mold creeping up baseboards while maintenance ghosts ignored pleas. Now? My fingers st

It was 4:30 AM on a chilly Tuesday in March when I first truly met the app that would become my silent confidant. The city was still asleep, wrapped in a blanket of darkness, but my mind was racing with the anxieties of a looming deadline at work. As a Muslim living in a non-Muslim majority country, maintaining my five daily prayers had always been a struggle amidst the hustle of a corporate job. I had downloaded numerous Islamic apps over the years, each promising to be the ultimate spiritual g

It was one of those nights where the silence was louder than any sound, the kind that wraps around you like a wet blanket, suffocating and heavy. I had been scrolling mindlessly through my phone, a habit I’d picked up to numb the ache of loneliness that had become my constant companion. My thumb moved mechanically, swiping past social media feeds filled with curated happiness, each post a stark reminder of what I lacked. Then, by chance or fate, my finger stumbled upon an icon I’d downloaded wee