GoGrinariuse 2025-09-28T11:28:02Z
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The wooden Go board mocked me again tonight, its grid lines blurring under lamplight as I replayed that damned tournament loss for the hundredth time. My fingers trembled tracing imaginary stones – always the same weak reading, same amateurish oversight where I'd tunnel-visioned on a local fight while my opponent encircled territory like a vulture. That stale library smell of my tattered tsumego books haunted the room, pages yellowed with desperation. For three years, I’d brute-forced problems u -
The 2:37 AM silence had teeth tonight. Outside my Brooklyn window, a garbage truck's distant groan echoed the frustration churning in my gut. Another ranked match lost—crushed by a reading blunder so elementary it felt like betrayal. My physical tsumego books lay scattered like fallen soldiers, their dog-eared pages whispering of countless failed attempts. Diagrams blurred. I was tracing lines, not seeing shapes. The wall felt physical, cold stone against my ambition.
