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Cold sweat trickled down my spine as I stared blankly at my reflection in the conference room door. In fifteen minutes, my career trajectory would be decided in that sterile box under fluorescent lights, and I'd just realized my meticulously prepared folder - containing twelve months of project notes, client testimonials, and peer feedback - was sitting on my kitchen counter. The digital equivalent of showing up naked to your own execution. My palms left damp ghosts on my trousers as I fumbled w

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